Carrying Less Baggage

Today I realized that I can breathe. deep. I have to get to work but I also feel free in a way today. I have been thinking about things, and trying to determine if I feel sad at what happend or sad that it happened in the way it did. 2 different things. I am sad that it happened the way it did. It wasn't mature, and it wasn't resolved, but I do feel freeer and I do feel happier and I when I think about making amends, I feel depressed, and weighed down by the thought of trying to reserect that relationship. I wish it hadn't of come to that, but it did. I wish I wasn't glad to be rid of it, but I am.

These thoughts came to me today when I was flipping through a drapery catalogue.