I'm Crying Alot Lately...My Life Is Changing Alot Lately

Don't know why exactly.

I get it in my head that Steve hates me. That he wants to be mean to me. That he enjoys when people are mean to me. Why do I think that? Is it true? All I want is to be happy, and I get scared that it will never come. Why can't I have, what it seems this girl has? Maybe noone will ever tuck me in, again.

Honestly, I need to move somewhere with better weather. Maybe thats why I'm so depressed. Even these 5 days of 80 degrees can't perk me up.