Today

I was really stressed out today. My christmas shopping isn't finished. I have anxiety about whether or not my family will like the gifts I am giving them. Sofie is acting crazy, she won't cooperate and is very bored because she doesn't have enough time to play in the snow. Steve is putting alot of pressure on me and making me feel hurt and insecure. We have AT & T coming tommorow to instal new tv service, and I have to make sure i am up and ready to go, and then call steve's dad over when I leave for work. Wednesday, from 1-3 our coffee and side table are being deliverd and that makes it very hard to get to work. So after 2 trips outside around the block in the cold and snow with Sofie trying to get her to potty I dragged her inside. She ran like a crazy dog around the house untill I grabed her and put her in the box. I was at the end of my rope. I sat down and took the deepest breath I have ever taken. Inhaling and Inhaling, almost gasping for breath. And then I instantly felt better. I felt in control again. I felt like I could get up and handle the next thing. Deep breaths, sometimes I need deeper ones than I think I do. I feel better and I will keep going.