La La Land

My new word is la la land. Everyone is from la la land lately. I had a great honeymoon, I got away from everyone except my baby and was able to relax and see new things and meet new people. And when I got home I was still feeling good. Still am, but as soon as I talk to a certain someone I can feel my good mood slipping away. I can feel the happiness being sucked out of me, and I wonder how this happened to her. How did she become a person like that? And more interestingly, how did I not?

Hmmmm.

Ring Ring Ring.

Instantly the conversation is about her, her likes, dislikes, interests, disinterests, problems etc. I am but an ear who answers the phone. I sometimes feel like I am only called because I will listen and not because she cares what I have to say back. She has a way of attempting to put me down, and I ignore it, because once you confirm it, she is instantly tickeled pink and then drowns on and on about how that is "your own insecurities and don't put them on me". When really she just wants to know that she got to you. Again, why do I answer the phone? So I brush off her jabs, her snotty responses and continue to listen to her blind search for compliments in every sentence. It gets tiring, it really does.

Most of the conversation is about herself. She mixes in a bit about pop culture like a teenager, and then it goes back to how she doesn't understand this or that about men. I offer my limited knowledge on the subject, which she immediatly rebuffs with "what do you know about dating, you've been with Steve for years". In an attempt to make me feel as though that "wasn't dating". Its obnicious, its rude, and its condesending. Again, why do I answer the phone?


So the conversation takes a quick turn to me, and how we should get together for my bithday, but she is soooo busy. She gives me dates that she "can't do it" saying "she'll be out of town". I, at this point, wonder if she just wants me to say "oh where are you going?" or feel bad that she can't squeeze me in, or flattered that she asks. But really, I just don't give a damn.

All of this is too much for me. I am still feeling the effects of a wonderful honeymoon and vacation. I don't need this excessive talking. It makes me think of this post where it explains about preserving your selfesteem.
A few points I found applicable:
#4. Don’t put up with crap.
There is no reason you should tolerate other people being mean to you. Even if they say they are doing it with love. Make sure people know they should be nice to you and if they refuse, walk away from them.

#5. Drop your negative friends.
Hang out with people who are positive and support you. It may be fun to bitch and moan but if you hang out with these types of people you will eventually become one of them. You may have noticed that people who bitch and moan are never happy.

Just thinking about all of this makes me tired.